Journal Entry: October 18, 2021
Oh no! I’m having one of those days again!!!! I’m questioning myself again. I can’t get my mind to shut up. I’m having all these negative thoughts –
I was a fool to start my business while raising a family. I’ll never succeed at this because I’m not disciplined enough. I don’t have what it takes. Who would want to work with me – I’m a mess. If I were to succeed in my business my kids would suffer.
Ok Catie, get a grip on yourself. If you’re going to question yourself then let’s take these one at a time.
No, I’m not a fool to start a business while raising a family. Everyone starts somewhere. My business may not bring in much now but when the kids are in their teens the extra income by then will come in handy. Just hang in there and keep plodding away. You’re in this for the long haul.
Discipline! Ha! I’ve got discipline when I need it. And who wrote that e-course while bed ridden when pregnant? Oh that’s right. ME!! See! I can discipline myself when I need to.
Who says I don’t have what it takes? Quit believing those lies. I’ve got everything I need to be not only successful in my business but to be a great mother too. I’m knowledgable, determined, resourceful, and I’m not a quitter. Oh, and I’m persistent too.
The fact that I’m a mess sometimes is EXACTLY why people would want to work with me. I’m real. Authentic. I’m relatable. I’m in the trenches with my clients. My vulnerability is what makes me approachable.
My kids would not suffer if I were successful! They would be inspired and proud to have a mom who was making a difference out there in the world. They would benefit from my growth as a person and being successful in business would make me a better mom and role model for my kids.
Thanks higher self for having this little conversation with me right now. I needed this. I knew I had a different perspective in me if I just took the time to think it through. See! I did think through taking on this juggling act of being a work at home mom. I’ve got this, maybe not 100% of the time but that’s ok. I’m doing the best I can and God knows how hard I’m trying. What more can I ask of myself?