Journal Entry: Sept 22, 2021
Today, of all days, I found in my mail, an invitation to my high school reunion. Urgggg… It’s a big one too. It’s got a zero at the end. I want to go but why did I have to get the invitation today????
I feel like crap. I look like crap and the last thing I want to think about is seeing old class mates who will probably look marvelous. Just look at me!
Do I really want to see some of my old friends? But then are we still friends? Facebook screwed up that word. We might have been close back then but I haven’t seen or talked to most of them in years. I have no idea who they are or how they think. I’m not sure we would even like each other. Do I want to find out? Part of me does but then there is this huge part of me that says “Sister! Don’t go! You’ll fall back into your comparison self and feel awful.” But then another part of me says “Yipeee! It sounds fun to reminisce with people who knew me back when. It could be a hoot and lots of laughs.” So which is it? To go or not to go? That is the question. I’ll need to think on this one. Maybe if I go try on my skinny jeans and they fit that will help me decide. Or better yet go have some iced espresso with whipped cream. That’ll perk me up while I contemplate my dilemma.