Journal Entry: Nov 17, 2021
I’m so excited today!! I’ve been doing so much better the last couple of days. I’ve had this enlightening experience. I’ve been going through this real funk the last week or so. I don’t know why but I was so tired all the time. All I wanted to do was just sit or take a nap. I didn’t think that I felt depressed but my body acted like it. I was having a hard time concentrating and I was getting really forgetful. One day I forgot my glasses, to put on earrings and my business cards when I went to a new networking meeting. Read more…

Maybe I was super nervous, but thank God I had extra business cards, some glasses and a pair of earring stashed away in my “forget-me-not bag in the back seat. God, how embarrassing that would have been to not have any business cards with me. I’m not sure exactly what happened but I must have hit a breakdown point because I had a breakthrough moment. I was watching this video yesterday about how to overcome emotional overwhelm. I have to say it was crazily simple. It said that whatever I focused on I would get more of those feelings. It suddenly dawned I me that I had been focusing on things that were making me really sad and depressed. This covid BS has really gotten to me. I realized I was focusing on all the things that I had no control over. I was focusing on how much I missed the past and simpler times. When I thought about the future I was focusing on the worse case scenarios and scaring myself to death. Then this thought came over me that it was I, ME, and only me who was the one responsible for my depressed and low energy mood. Therefore, I had the power and could change how I felt by changing my focus. What an “ah ha” moment that was. Then I remembered how to tap. I started tapping and talking about all the things that were going right. About how blessed I was. I talked about all the little things that I had accomplished and how put all together how important they really were. I brought God into the conversation and asked him for some comfort and guidance. I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths and just relaxed. It was incredible. I felt this shift happen literally in my body. It was the coolest thing. And later when I noticed my mood shifting back negative again, I caught myself. Slapped myself on the face and yelled “Focus Catie.” And then did a quick round of tapping to snap me out of my emotional backslide. And now I’m so glad I wrote all this down. When you have an amazing day you want to be able to remember it forever. This was one of those day!!! Yippee!!