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Journal Entry: February 16, 2022 The other day was Valentine’s Day, the day to celebrate love and yet I didn’t feel it. In fact I’m having this love/hate relationship with the concept of love. On one hand I get the feeling of unconditional love for my kids, but geez that’s so hard to feel all the time. And other things we’re “supposed” to love, well, I hate the idea that there’s no wiggle room for maybe not being all that loving about someone or something. Sometimes life is just hard to love. For instance, lately I’m just not feeling the …

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Journal Entry: Jan 7, 2022 Well I’ve started the new year off pretty good. I made a few new year’s resolutions and so far I’m sticking with them. Well, close enough. I’m reading more – at least 10 pages of a good book. I’ve almost finished my first book. Another goal I have is to drink 8 glasses of water every day. I am so grateful someone suggested adding lemon to it. It makes drinking water so much easier. It’s so much more refreshing. For my body I came up with a floor exercise routine comprised of 20 simple stretches. …

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Journal Entry: Dec 16, 2021 I love my family. I really do. I’m excited that they’re all coming for Christmas. Yay! We don’t get to be together very often. It’ll be fun. So then why do I feel so apprehensive? This has been a really hard year and as I look back I was overwhelmed a lot. Maybe I’m just emotionally exhausted. That’s why I’m not exactly jumping up and down for joy about Christmas this year. Yikes! Where is everyone going to sleep? Maybe I should buy more toilet paper. And check the bath towel situation. Is everyone going …

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Journal Entry: Dec 2, 2021 When I was younger I hated being alone, especially on a Friday or Saturday night. Being alone back then made me feel like I wasn’t liked or wanted – all that worrying about being popular crap. Now being alone feels so different. Sometimes I crave it. Somebody is always around, in my space, my head, my heart, my bed. It’s either the kids, or Kyle or clients or friends or mother or even the dog and cat. Somebody always needs something from me. My phone doesn’t even leave me alone. It’s always dinging or pinging …

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Journal Entry: Nov 23, 2021 This has been one strange year. I have to say it’s been kind of hard to stay in an attitude of gratitude. As we’re getting close to Thanksgiving I’ve been trying to find more things to be grateful for, even if they are just little things. I’ve heard that it doesn’t really matter what you’re grateful for, it just matters that your heart is filled with a sense of being blessed with an abundance of good things. If I look back on this year I know it could have been a lot worse.  There are so …

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Journal Entry: Nov 17, 2021 I’m so excited today!!  I’ve been doing so much better the last couple of days. I’ve had this enlightening experience.   I’ve been going through this real funk the last week or so. I don’t know why but I was so tired all the time. All I wanted to do was just sit or take a nap. I didn’t think that I felt depressed but my body acted like it. I was having a hard time concentrating and I was getting really forgetful. One day I forgot my glasses, to put on earrings and my …

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Journal Entry: Nov 11, 2021 I came across the other day a definition of discernment and it got me to wondering how often I use my own. Discernment it said was the basically the alignment of logic with intuition. I really liked that way of looking at it but it made me realize that I’m not always very good at using my own discernment, especially when it comes to what comes out of my mouth. I’ve got to get better at being more mindful of what I say. Why do I have this habit of saying the first thing that …

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Journal Entry: Sept 1, 2021 Lately, my anxiety has really kicked in. It feels like I’m dealing with it on some level 24/7. For years I could process my stress without much problem. I might have gotten agitated and a little snarkier than usual. But anxiety was never debilitating, just annoying.  However, recently I’ve had a really hard time staying positive and my normal perky self. The worse part is that awful and sometimes really scary thoughts will pop into my head for no reason. When I take the time to slow down and check in with my body, I …

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Journal Entry: Sept 22, 2021 Today, of all days, I found in my mail, an invitation to my high school reunion. Urgggg…   It’s a big one too. It’s got a zero at the end. I want to go but why did I have to get the invitation today???? I feel like crap. I look like crap and the last thing I want to think about is seeing old class mates who will probably look marvelous. Just look at me!   Do I really want to see some of my old friends? But then are we still friends? Facebook screwed up that …

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Journal Entry: October 18, 2021 Oh no! I’m having one of those days again!!!! I’m questioning myself again. I can’t get my mind to shut up. I’m having all these negative thoughts – I was a fool to start my business while raising a family.  I’ll never succeed at this because I’m not disciplined enough. I don’t have what it takes.  Who would want to work with me – I’m a mess.  If I were to succeed in my business my kids would suffer. Ok Catie, get a grip on yourself. If you’re going to question yourself then let’s take these …

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